If there ever was a time to compare yourself to no one but yourself, this is the time.  If there ever was a time to compare yourself even against yourself and no one else, before letting yourself go, this is the read for that.  Why?  Because, you've been either aiming too high, or too low at all the wrong times.  Protecting and finger pointing seems but all to comfortable until you're faced with the reality that some of the fault belongs to you.  Face your fear of admittance forgive, forget and release.